So I have had some bad news today, news that from one way of looking at it should have been 20 or even as little as 4 years ago.
But for the fact that the UK health service does have some very clever and caring people my Mother would have died 4 years ago.
Now in the grand scheme of things, e.g who ever writes this script called life we get the news that she now has a fast growing tumor in her airway that is inoperable.
The even evil bit is she gets this news 10 years to the day we buried my father, so someone somewhere does have a very sick sense of humor.
Hearing the news form my sister who was wither her I don't know how to feel about it, as in one sense it was always going to happen some time, just I don't want to hear it now.
My Mother on being told this news is reported to have remarked "What a shiter"! which I suppose does rather sum it all up.
As the lady has always lived her life how she wants to, it comes as now surprise that she has already started to put her life affairs in order and has already stated that she wants an eco burial, and is going to look at where she wishes to be buried...
I have told her since hearing the news that I love her and she replied that she loved me and that she would talk to me until the end, for reasons that I will not put in here, I shall only talk to her.
I can't face seeing her face to face as she declines, as I want to remember her as she was fit and fighting, she has said that she understands this, for which I am happy for her support.
So how long has my Mother got?
She says anywhere between 2 weeks and 2 Months but thinks from what the consultant said 8 weeks is probably very optimistic.
So I shall talk to my Mother until its time and tell her that I love her.
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